Widget World April 20, 2008

Just because I like to torture myself, I have created several countdown / count-up widgets on my dashboard. These are the categories for my widgets: __ days until I go scrapbooking, __ days until homestudy meeting #4, __ days until Tom’s final, __ days until last day of school, __ days until Alayna’s due date, __days until Little Man turns 4, __ days until Tom graduates, __ days until we might have a referral (I went way conservative here), __ days since our agency’s tracking list was last updated, __ days since the last female referral, __ days since we made it on the official list at our agency.

My dashboard is a sea of countdown calendars. It would almost be funny if it wasn’t so pathetic.

65 Days April 11, 2008

We are a little over a month into the process and I can tell you with 100% certainty that the waiting is going to make me a crazy person. We went into this knowing that the wait for a female referral was going to be significantly longer than the wait for a male referral. I have developed an obsession with checking our agency’s referral / travel tracking website and I figured out that it has been 65 days since the last female referral. I know that they were getting a lot more female referrals a few months ago and yes I know that these things are unpredictable and they may get inundated with them over the next few months. It is just hard thinking about how long our already long wait is going to get. I really need to stop checking the tracking list. I tell myself each day not to check the list. I know that we are not even close to the top of the list and it is ridiculous for me to get so caught up in the list on a daily basis. I know it would be much better to check the list once a month instead of 6,829 times a day. I know this. I do. Yet, I MUST CHECK THE LIST. I must have it in for myself. I have to go now. I am late checking the list.